The Dishes Need Scrubbing, That Spider Looks Intimidating, The Cat is On My Lap...

This UBBT thing can be very overwhelming. I work on my forms, but in the meantime my push ups are a disaster. I come home and ask myself, what to do? Do I do a few reps of Mlong Kuen, do I read my book, do I work on the renovations, or do I tackle the heap of laundry?

I spent my short weekend working on my goals, but you can't see the dent. Saturday I caught up on laundry & housework. Sunday I got called to work, then came home and spent some time with Nick. Monday I worked on the renovations and took my dogs to my parents to run- both of which are goals. Tuesday night I tried to catch up a bit on my forms reps- it helped.

But its strange, I felt guilty on Monday for not doing a single form rep, but I did work on my goals. I see that I'm behind on reading- do I sit and read my book, do I choose shorter books, or do I work on Tai Chi? Do I look for an evening course to learn American Sign Language and give up my Tuesday/Thursday training? Or, do I stay home one night and spend time with Nick, who I see for maybe an hour a day, who works 12 hour days, 6 days a week and who is asleep before I get home from classes?

Also, with all the form repetitions, I'm identifying bad habits and breaking them, all the while forming new shiny bad habits. I know you train so you can react on instinct, and your brain is not required. However, I need my brain fully engaged to make it through Da Mu Hsing in a technically correct manner.

The UBBT is absolutely helping with my creativity. I can find any excuse not to do a push up- the dog is in the way, I should do Mlong Kuen, I need to vacuum first, I just showered, my back aches, the microwave is beeping, Nick is talking to me, the cat wants in, the cat wants out, the dogs want out, the dogs are hungry, Nick is hungry, I'm hungry, my book looks lonely, my walls look dirty, I'm teaching, I'm learning, I'm working, the dryer is beeping, the plants need watering, the drive needs salting, the phone is ringing, that peanut needs shelling, shall I go on? You know I can...

Boy, I understand why its called Ultimate and not just Mildly Extreme or the Somewhat Difficult Challenge.

I feel overwhelmed, but at the same time I can see that I'd be lost without the UBBT. Maybe one of my goals should be to take a time management course!

I Dub This Post Short

Congratulations to all the promotion recipients!

I'm confused as to where my UBBT is at. I'm training more than ever, 6 days a week in a formal setting, in addition to the at home training. I find myself strategizing in an attempt to bring my numbers up. I'm wishing for one full day with no one around and nothing to do but Mlong Kuen and push ups. I feel happy with my progress in my forms, but then I look at my numbers and feel a twinge of despair.

Hmph. I'm going to go do a couple reps of Mlong Kuen in the back shop.