Apologies for the complaining tone of this blog, it isn't my intention but I'm sure it'll come though. I plan on ending on a good note, so bear with me.
So as I've stated too many times before, this year has been rough. I've been to emergency 6 times for myself and twice for others. Visited a hospital for one reason or another more times than I have fingers or toes (or knuckles, or bones). Called 911 twice. Had a vehicle stolen. Experienced other events that I don't intend on sharing today. And most recently, have had my house broken into and my purse with my wallet and keys stolen while we were sleeping ten feet away. Hence why I was not at the meeting- too busy trying to get a temporary licence, cancelling all my credit cards, contacting the bank, getting new membership cards, changing the locks and setting up a security system at home. How sweet does that sound?
So anyways, I've been in a funk. I felt like I was managing to climb out of it the last couple weeks, then 2am Saturday morning humanity reminded me why I was grumpy. Some days it's all I can do to plaster a smile on my face that I don't feel. It's not depression, just a perpetual feeling that I want to bang my head against a wall (or, on occasion, someone else's).
Okay, I'm done with the complaining. On to brighter things.
Yesterday I decided I didn't want this anymore. I was going to get this thing whipped, dammit. First, I revamped my requirements and reached out for some help. Then I picked up my uke and played a bit with that. Then I threw in the Tai Chi dvd and followed along with Sifu Dennis for almost an hour. Then I went to class and all you folks had me feeling better.
Today I woke up feeling better and I felt great in class. Sifu Lindstrom helped me with my lion skills as Sifu Regier held my tail (oh how I felt like a bride) and Sifu Hayes giggled at us. I headed off to Service Canada and got my stolen SIN card dealt with, did some christmas shopping and came home to work on a couple other christmas gifts I was creating by hand. Made plans with my mommy to have a craft day with my neighbour. Pet my kitties and doggies and sat down to write this blog.
My stresses are still hanging with me but I won't let myself mull on them anymore. It's too exhausting and unproductive. I'm going to work my way out of this funk. You guys are my foundation- I've been looking to you all for support and you have never failed me. Just being with you guys on the mats or chatting on the sidelines makes me remember why I am a normally happy person. This team may have been created to help us toward mastery but it has evolved into more than that for me.
And for your enjoyment- https://youtu.be/j_QLzthSkfM
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Please be advised that I plan on hugging you the next time I see you.. If you do not like hugs now would be a good time to mention that. I will also be hugging Chuck if I ever get the opportunity.
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