Change is Coming

I hope everyone had as much fun at the Festival of Trees as I did. I can relate to Sifu Csillag's post- I usually don't make eye contact with an audience but this demo felt so intimate and the kids were so close I found myself smiling at them while I performed. It was rewarding, this demo, in a way that others have not been.

Unfortunately I'll have to significantly lessen my role in the new years demo and whatever others are in the foreseeable future. I don't know how much I will be able to or should be doing at that point in time and want you all to know that I'm not slacking on the team, I promise. I'm pregnant. I considered telling everyone at the next meeting but it's nice to hide behind a screen so no one sees me blush. I am on the team next year, but in planning my goals there has been a significant shift, understandably I'm sure. I'll be doing my best to stay engaged and I'll minimize my absence when it comes.

Oh, I should mention one last bombshell. We're expecting twins.

Goals

Reviewing my personal goals, I have to say that although I've made progress on them all I will not meet them. However, I'm happy to say this year was a year when I finally hit some of my old goals from years past, bigger projects and undertakings. So, I guess I'm a few years behind but on the way?

There was one goal this year that I call a success, although the numbers do not support that conclusion. I wanted to regain control over an out of control situation and originally thought meditation would be the answer and therefore I set a requirement. The number of minutes I've accumulated are minimal, however through other means I've regained the control I sought. This I'd see as a victory. And I believe that now more so than before meditation would be beneficial, a way to maintain what I have gained. As such, I'm not dropping the requirement but renewing my dedication to it.

It saddens me that I did not dedicate myself more to my personal goals. They were goals that meant something to me but seemed insignificant when compared to everything else. Yes, I still have time, but I know I won't meet them in totality. I just want to be further ahead at the end of the year than I am right now.