Cedar & Cher

Looking back on my blog dates I realized how much the ball is dropped. I knew I was behind but it had gotten away from me worse than I thought.

I can't say I have much for a reason but I have plenty of excuses. We've been spending every spare moment drywalling, painting, installing cedar ceilings, sealing the wood, installing trim, and today getting the floor installed in the hall and bedroom. So I could say my focus has shifted. I don't want to say my priorities have changed, rather they have been added to. But, if I'm honest, it has just been lack of discipline. I've had the time and ability just without the followthrough. The aforementioned are excuses, not reasons.

I have been journaling, but privately for a change. I've been carrying on what my mother started decades ago and I'm writing in the same journal she wrote for me when I was a baby, but obviously I'm writing to my own unborn pups. It's a different experience, and I'm excited and scared spitless at the same time.

I've been regretting not establishing a stronger schedule or regime when I had the chance. I feel that it would have been such a benefit to me now to have the practice and the skills that would have been better developed. I could have made it serve be better but didn't. Such is the theme regarding many of my requirements- most still works in progress, few fully accomplished. If only I had superpowers like Sifu S. Csillag I'd turn back time.