I’m Still Here

I’m finally enjoying putting together a form, which doesn’t sound like much but for me it’s huge. I’m using YouTube as a base but changing things to suit me and make it more Kempo. I’m struggling with a couple steps, making it work with how I want to turn and how I want to end up.

I’ve been working on my ukulele requirement. It feels nice to pick it up again. And it makes the babies smile. Strangely enough the inspiration from the kids movie Trolls. Who would have thought.

Years ago I decided a good requirement would be to complete a room in the house. I had picked the living room- and no, it’s not complete. It’s hard when it relies on so many things outside my control but we’ve made a lot of progress throughout the whole house and that makes me happy. I managed to get the entire upstairs completed, mostly when I was pregnant, starting right from the studs. Goes to show what you can accomplish when you have the motivation. Just missing one door, which is on Nicks to do list.

I can recall so many times when I was able to accomplish so much; the key was having the right reason to do it. There are some requirements I’m already struggling on so I’m trying to change my approach, find the reason that will give me the drive to see them through. Blogging being one of them. Right now I have a little voice saying just shut up and do it. You’d think with so many beneficial and logical reasons this would be a no brainer.

Progress is Progress

I’m finding it difficult to keep up with all the requirements. I feel like I’ve been having to pick my battles; I have no excuse not to do the sit ups and pushups so those are the best numbers I have, but putting together my weapons form is creeping at a painfully slow rate. I can’t really swing a weapon around or even work on my stepping with my two critters at my feet. I regret not taking advantage of my access to the kwoon when I could; now I have to battle my guilt when I am there.

I didn’t mean to start this off on such a negative note. On the contrary, I feel like I’m finally being forced to add structure to my life. And that is a good thing. I’m reminding myself to stay present when I’m with my kidlets. I’m able to focus better when I have a chance to work on paperwork or a project as the opportunity can end at any moment. As a result I feel the quality of my work and time spent in general is higher. Although I have no time my time is well spent.

Normally a blog like this would have taken me 20 minutes to write and edit. This one was over three days. C’est le vie. And Carter just woke up so...