Motivation

What is your motivation? Why are you here? What is it that causes you to show up to class, day after day, month after month, year after year?

Not everyone has the same wheel driving us. Sometimes, this wheel changes. Personally, I think we need to know what it is that motivates us, what could motivate us, and what we need to motivate us. I know what motivated me when I was 16 no longer applies, and what I use as motivation now never even occurred to me then. This is not necessarily bad, we all change with time as does our thought processes, our personality and of course, our motives.

Additionally, not all of us know truly what it is that motivates us. Or alternatively, what does motivate us may not be working as well as we would like. Maybe, we are not motivated at all, or we are extremely motivated and progressing great. Perhaps its

So, what is it? Do you want to increase your independence, or maybe your conditioning? Maybe its a way to become a strong role model for a child, or maybe your ego is whats driving you?

Now, how far will that motivation get you? Because its true, some motives make it further than others. Some will get you to blue or brown, some to black, others will be endless. Again, keeping in mind things change with time. By the time you get to blue or brown, something can change and all of a sudden you are capable of anything, in regards to your motivation.

The key is to recognize where it is you stand. I've seen a lot, been through a lot, where I can't help but gain motivation or lose motivation, put in a rut or maybe I put myself there, and then I find myself crawling out. Regardless, know where you are at and you will better understand how to get to where you want to go.

Seven Days Without a Shower, And I'm Happy

I am currently sitting in the middle of a bush somewhere in Athabasca County, and I haven't had a real shower for a week, I have a slight sunburn, several new scar inducing cuts and wounds, but I an more than content. Right now I'm the only one here, Nick and his brother Matt are off playing somewhere. I caught myself breaking out the dance moves to the local radio station, playing everything from Golden Earring to AC/DC to Rihanna. My dog added her own moves and tail wags, completing the spectacular duet.
Sometimes, simplicity is the answer. Don't become bogged down by details or stress, live to make yourself happy, be honest about what that is, and take it from there. Me, I feel best when I see the lightbulb above a students head, when I throw a stick for the dogs, and when I'm burried deep in a bush with limited water, hot dogs and a lot of mud on my quad fenders.

Hot Sauce

I've been denting the couch for the last three days, but I've managed to drag my butt to work today. This still doesn't mean I'm in a talkative mood, however. Nicks cure isn't working very well- chicken soup with hot sauce. Doesn't taste too bad, though. Who woulda thought.

My Car Doors Were Frozen Shut With Mud

Sorry, I did had a post prepped, all about the signs of spring but then everything disappeared under a blanket of snow.

So, new list; How You Know You Live in Alberta
1. Two days of snowfall in the middle of April, the day after you rake your lawn.
2. You turn on the heat in your car in the morning, and open your windows en route home.
3. Your dog has a muddy underbelly and snowballs on her feet all at the same time.
4. You feel bad for the first few geese you see.
5. One day you're practicing spear in the driveway, the next day you're shoveling the driveway.
6. I'll be able to post my signs of spring tomorrow.

Happy April Everybody!

Sister Sledge- They Know What I'm Talking About

This was something that came up once in a UBBT meeting, and I was reminded again this last Friday.
Its true that the kwoon affects us, that when you're there you can feel a connection to the room and to the people in it. When someone is missing, it feels different. When someone is there that normally is not, it adds to the mood and to the overall effect the kwoon has. It's great.
I'm not exactly shy, but I do not normally approach strangers for no reason. In class however, when we have new blackbelts or long lost blackbelts return, I don't feel like I'm approaching a stranger, I'm approaching a peer and family member. Conversation is usually easy, usually Kung Fu related, and always stimulating in some way. I'm not shy.
I like this. I like how we can all connect easily, how we do connect even if I've never talked to the individual before. At work, I meet new people everyday in a professional manner. I'm not shy then either, but its disconnected and just part of the job description to me. Even if I don't talk to a specific individual in class, I don't feel that I need to to feel a connection. Just being in the same room, training towards the same goals is enough.

Sunshine & Lollipops

Good news- Nicks mom was misdiagnosed, and although she still has some health issues to overcome, she should be around for a longtime yet. We went out for supper last night with her and her husband, to celebrate Matts (Nicks brother) birthday, and it was good to see her, even if there is only 97lbs of her.

They still do not know what she has. There are no signs of cancer in her blood, so they have ruled that out. They need to do another biopsy (the fourth now) and then maybe we'll know what is going on. I still have faith in medical technology, but I have to admit its been rattled as of late.

When I Grow Up, I Want to Be a Hyena

After discussing the diet tracking with Sihing Wiebe, I have learned a lesson about myself- I don't eat, I scavenge. I mean, look at my entries, there is no rhyme or reason to what I eat, I eat what happens to be closest at that time. Who eats a bun and a cheese slice- separately?!?

I think I can write a Christmas carol right now. Sing with me!

Fiiiive cups of coffeeeee!
Four black plums
Three chocolate cookies
Two bowls of cereal
And a processssed cheeeeeese sliiiiice!

I always knew I wasn't a saint when it came to my diet, but I never realized how random my diet is. Even if I'm not often eating greasy or fatty food, I doubt I have any balance to my diet- one day would be all fiber, the next all fruit, the next all cookies (they are their own food group).

It definitely teaches you to me mindful throughout the day.