Accountability, Here I Come

I have been doing a lot of reading lately, mainly about other peoples' opinions, aspirations, goals, feats and development. Every time I read a new post, I feel inspired and thrilled that people I know are doing so much to improve themselves and their community. Then I think, I think its my turn.
First, I'll explain the title to this page. A couple of posts have been made about a certain dog named Sophie, and about her zeal for life, her love for everything, her innocence and the impact she made in this world. It was these posts that made me decide to finally take the initiative and do something. Not something to save the world, but something to change the path I'm on, to save myself. Remember, these were posts about a dog. Not world hunger, not war, not society, politics or death. The first post made me smile and made me think. The second post made me cry.
Being completely honest and accountable is harder than I thought. My head has been reeling over the last couple of months. Issues have been forced into my view that I had been ignorant about. I honestly was one of those people who were aware of problems like famine, war and social expectations, and figured I couldn't do anything about it other than live my life without being the cause. I was the person that Master Brinker was trying to reach. Thank God or Buddah or whoever you choose that he did.
I think I was more mature when I was sixteen and eighteen than I have been in the last year. At sixteen, if someone said that I couldn't do something, I did everything I could to prove them wrong. And I did. The color of my belt is proof. Lately, if someone tells me I can do more, I think to myself, yeah, your right. But what? Then the issue closes. How pitiful, how pathetic is that?
So, I'm doing something to smarten myself up. I'm taking the initiative, and I'm doing something my instructors have been telling me to do for months now. I'm making myself accountable, and in doing so I'm laying myself out as best I can in attempt to destroy all possibilities of backing out of this. How better to do this than to do it publicly, on the internet, and for my peers at SRKF to see?
I've made some dumb decisions as of late. As of today, they are corrected. I can do so much more in terms of training. As of today, I'm doing it. This page and my future posts will see to it that these things get done. Holy crap, I have never been so scared and so exhilarated in my life.

I guess this is one more way that Sophie the Bouvier has made an impact.