So where am I in training and life in general? I don't really know at the moment. In the last few months so much of my life has changed that I'm feeling a bit lost, like when your teachers all asked you in junior high what you wanted to be when you grew up and you hadn't the foggiest. The only thing thats been constant is Friday nights, where I go to my classes and thats that. But then I go and miss last night and all day today I'm thinking its Friday. I'm completely, utterly lost without the Friday routine. It's my reset to the week, and now that I don't have a formal day job its my anchor when I can't even keep track of what day it is.
As I mentioned, everything has changed. Its strange to think that everything that I was a few months ago had been slowly developing over time, building up and on itself to take to me where I was, and then BAM! nothing is the same. Home life, work life, kung fu life, family life, even my pets all did a 180 or better. (Yes, I know, more than 180 is just closer to the original. Not the point.).
I think I need some kind of reset. Not just on the week, but on my life. There are a few things and a few things only that I know I want to keep constant, kung fu being one of them, and the rest is in the air. Where do I see myself in 10, 20, 40 years? In Stony Plain, at the kwoon. Other than that, I don't really know. I haven't the foggiest, actually.
3 comments:
I think it is great that you found your constant in Kung Fu. When I was growing up, I never thought I will leave my birth city and now I'm living in the other side of the world. Things change constantly and sometime (like you said) 180 degrees and more. I think you've got some Kung Fu wisdom to make the best out of it.
You are where you need to be right now and I was in that place not long ago. Time to look at what you love to do, what are you skilled at and what comes so darned easy to you. You will find overlap. Start wondering what if this, how about that, what if you tried this other thing? It needs not be perfect, just started.
hello sifu you may not know where your heading, but you defiantly have a bright future whatever it may be. i know i don't know to much in what is happening or what your doing,but the type of person you are, fun, spontaneous, and confident, i am sure it will be spectacular. Your commitment in your kung fu is astounding, willing to try new things and to lend a ear when needed, just make me want to do those things for other people too and to have that confidence. your special(not in the mean way, but the nicest way possible)
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