I've been stressed this last while. Too many balls in the air and I'm dropping so many that I'm struggling to keep from tripping on them. My brain seems to be deciding to walk out on me, which would explain why these last two sentences required me to edit and delete about twelve times before they resembled english. The originals more accurately reflected where I'm at- hodgepodge of nonsense. Autocorrect can't save me.
I am struggling to keep in the moment which is causing me to loose sight of many things. I can be working on one thing but I'm thinking about the dozen other things that need my attention so nothing really gets what it deserves from me. I've been using the list method, however my list grows faster than I'm crossing off items, which only freaks me out. Seems life is all about the list.
I talked to someone recently who mentioned she thought it would be beneficial if I took a holiday. Just pack up my husband and take a couple days where I have no responsibilities. I've been obsessed with the idea since then, but feel I can't just walk away from my responsibilities like that. Whatever balls I walk away from are balls someone else will need to try to pick up and juggle. I know what that feels like and can't be the cause for someone else to be in that spot.
Somehow I've managed to say a lot without saying anything.
At least I had some good feedback last night in one area. Couldn't have come at a better time, when I felt everything was circling the drain. Now to sort out the rest of my life and then take a long, long nap.
2 comments:
This may sound like more work and probably way more confusing but you should try three lists. The stuff that has to get done "the most important stuff", the stuff that needs to be done but can wait, and the stuff that it would be nice to get done but the world will not end if it doesn't. The brain is a funny thing, if you think that there is no chance of winning you will end up losing. You will find that roughly 10-15% of you big list makes the "have to do" list which subconsciously helps you believe that you are able to complete everything. I mean seeing a list of 5 items is way less daunting than one with 50. It is also easier to delegate the "not the end of the world" list with less concern of imposing on others.
I find lists can be daunting sometimes but I try to focus on one thing and then move on to the next item. I also use Mr. Helms method.
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